unintentional inspiration

deleted two posts, and decided to write more. here that is.

chem test t-minus seven hours and counting.

i am inspired when i ought not to be. this evening has certainly been productive. i updated ALL of my album art in my itunes (something i do quite obsessively), i caught up on all those new movie trailers, and i found a few quotes that i like. i even had a minor musical epiphany! (i had a 'top 5' moment of clarity).

why all this misguided energy? i ought to be reviewing gram to mole conversion equations, and nailing down how to balance net ionic equations. i seem to always have my work cut out for me.

despite the evening of procrastination, that i regret to announce will soon be coming to an end, i feel like i'm more excited than i have been in a long time about my future. (maybe it's because i have a girlfriend...) i bought two books on the ocean in the last week, and recently i have been talking a lot with friends about fishing practices, and seemingly enlightening a few of them. it feels really good to educate my close friends with knowledge that has an immediate impact on their lives. it makes me more inspired to continue on this path, and simultaneously creates a feeling of unrest. i feel like i ought to be in monterey bay, diving in the kelp forests, and perhaps monitoring sea otter activity, or sea urchin populations. i want so badly to be in a submarine on the ocean floor.

wow just realized that my life is dramatically beginning to resemble "Octopus's Garden". not such a bad thing. some synchronicity there as well, my friends ordered two heaping plates of calamari this afternoon, which although would've tasted delicious, i did not eat. almost a whole year of being a vegetarian!

that's all for tonight, and besides who reads this anyway???

- paul